Post Song: Everybody Talks by Neon Trees

Is there a rule that you are not allowed to interact with people of the opposite sex if you aren’t single? If there is, then it is most definitely the root of my problems lately. If you read my characters of Ramonaville bio I wrote, you’ll know that I am in a committed relationship with Peter. Peter and I have the same group of friends, mainly guys, Helena, and Anna. They are not just friends of my boyfriend who I hang out with solely because of Peter. They’re MY friends and I like to believe they feel the same way about me.

Like I have previously mentioned, Jesse, who is Peter’s best friend, and I are close because we have similar personalities. We are both obnoxiously optimistic and affectionate people who become even more happy and flirty while intoxicated. Go figure. He often has great advice or at the very least can cheer me up when I’m feeling miserable about life. Lately I have been talking to him more than I normally do. Apparently it has gone noticed by other people.

The other day, I was hanging out with Brian at uni and texting Jesse at the same time. Brian started making inappropriate comments about my relationship with Jesse and implying there was something more than friendship going on. Then Brian, being the dick that he is, texted Jesse saying “Ramona want the D.”

I most certainly do NOT want Jesse’s D! Stupid fucking Brian…

I hate that I can’t just talk to a guy without there being some sort of ulterior motive behind it.

A blast from my past, Roen also messages me on Facebook often, however that situation is different and I do understand. I used to be in love with Roen. However, lately he only has been talking to me when he needs a shoulder to bitch on or is seeking female advice. My relationship with Roen has evolved into a healthy “I’m there when you need me” type of situations. I like it that way because honestly we do know a lot about each other. It would be a shame to lose that connection with a person.

What this is all leading up to is the fact that I AM IN A COMMITTED RELATIONSHIP PEOPLE! That means that Peter, besides knowing everything about me, knows about every interaction I have with other guys. Whenever we talk to other people of the opposite sex, we disclose that information to each other because being shady is not our thing. We don’t believe in cheating. If we develop feels for other people, believe it or not, we talk about it! I know about all his little attractions and puppy love crushes he has just like he does about me. We are honest with each other. He knows everything. Stop trying to stir up trouble, people. You won’t get anywhere.

But with that said, why do I not like Peter having the code to unlock my phone? Why do I feel like I have to delete Jesse’s text messages even though they are innocent? Why did I stop talking to Roen so much?

I don’t know if I feel guilty. Perhaps Peter’s paranoia is rubbing off on me.

Oh well, fuck it.